#21 What to write, what to write?

Well, it's now almost 7am, and Ashe should be home anytime. YAY! I'm getting miserable, because my feet and ankles are so swollen it's painful. When I washed my face, and took my makeup off, I got some stuff in my eye that's killing my contact lens. But, the upside is, I'm showered, in comfy clothes (read PJs), and washed my hair. I'm good. :D And, I'm watching Jake 2.0 between entries. I'm in great shape! LOL Oh, and I'm not tired right now. :D

I think I'm going to do a list of things I think about when I need to remind myself why I'm not going to kill myself. There's a reason one of the charities I'm blogging for is the Bipolar Depression Support Alliance.

- Music, one of the most important non-physical things in the world to me. Without music, my life would be empty.

- My husband. The man I love more than any other adult man on the face of the earth. Yes, my husband outranks my daddy here.

- My kids. Three VERY IMPORTANT things. Yeah, I often think they'd be better off without me, but then I realize that without me, they're either going to be raised by their sperm donors, or my mother. And I don't want either of those options.

- My friends. The people who care about me because they WANT TO. I don't think many of them truly know how much that means to me.

It would be a much longer list if I listed each person I think of individually, which is what I do when I'm in that moment, but that would take me an hour to write, and i don't have that much time.